Monday, April 9, 2018

Light headed

My love for you is so heavy
there are days, I feel so light headed.
Those are days I want to lie down in the middle of the road,
just to look up at the clear sky and fall asleep,

And let me tell you, these are not sad days,
these are days, I feel your love inside me
and you are not around to feel it.

A Daughter's Wish

Looking out of the window
In the Mavelikkara house, there are days I wish
She walked back into our lives,
draped in one of her beautiful sari's,
I see her walking towards me
with that trademark glint in her eyes, gleaming.

She loved to travel,
She dreamt about places to visit;
So looking out of the kitchen window,
washing the dishes there are days I wish
She walked back into our lives
with a suitcase in her hand and
tell us, " I was just away traveling,
seeing the World and now I'm back !

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

From Pixie to Punk !

I was planning to cut my hair for a really really long time. So when I finally did, I didn’t have any other responds to the shocked friends, other than... ‘because I wanted to.’
I also wanted to challenge my inner self; The desi long hair girl was a disguise, she was missing the pixie and the punk inside her. So I thought it’s high time I brought out my inner real self. Not only my new friends but also my sister’s-in-law were shocked to see me in the new avatar. Some of them asked me whether I cut my hair again or is it an old pic I've uploaded in the FB ? Husband didn’t like it either. Every time we got ready to go out he commented without fail, ‘you look like the aunties from’80’s.’ Which of course I took as a compliment. When his words were not getting the desired effect, he stopped commenting on my hair cut. For me, I am at that point in my life even if I shave off my hair like Tilda Swinton (from Doctor Strange movie) I will still walk on this planet confidently. For me the hair on my head didn’t define my beauty. Every time I looked in the mirror I only saw a strong woman staring back at me. I saw a woman with the ability to smile even at the most difficult times in her life. I felt her kind heart inside me. A heart capable of forgiving even her worst enemies; In her eyes I saw her quest for knowledge and making new friends. These were the things which made her beautiful not her long or short hair. 
My hairstylist too refused to cut my hair that short. According to him, a short haircut won't suit me. But then I told him, there is only one life and too many hairstyles to try and that philosophy got him and he agreed to cut my hair. After cutting my hair he tried to convince me to straighten it. But I refused to do so because I liked my wavy black hair. 

Few years back I took a decision not to straighten my hair anymore. When I looked around, girls with curly hair wished for straight hair and girls with straight silky hair wished for curly /wavy hair. Now that I’m a Mother, I wondered what will I teach my son when he grows up. If I’m not accepting my own body and its features, then one day when he grows up and goes through his teens what will I teach him ! 
I have nothing against styling my hair. For weddings and other events I've smoothed my hair and styled it. But never ever I have gone for a permanent hair straightening in a long time. Because I believe the only trick needed to make a really short hair cut work is confidence and only confidence.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Winter musings !


The forgotten pink crocs are back on my feet,
the ugly green sweater is out of the cupboard,
the cooking oil is frozen and staring back at me,
the soup recipes are all bookmarked,
the hair oil refuses to come out of the bottle,
It's time to chill,
Yes, Winter knows it's time to chill.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

The Romantic In Me !


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Six years ago I met this Awesome guy; He came to my house with his family. What happened there was love at first sight (for me) and love at many many sights for him! Few weeks later, our engagement date was fixed. I started getting phone calls from him. In return, I started writing letters to him. My theory was, phone calls will only generate phone bills whereas, letters will live longer. One day, they will tell not only my grand kids but also my great grand kids, how much their Great grandma loved their Great grand dad! 

Friday, March 4, 2016

You & Me !


Some relationships don't have a Name!
They don't have a destination to reach together,
Yet they exist beautifully.
Don't analyse, what is You and Me!
Don't let guilt ruin You and Me!
Let us just be... You and Me.